Love is just a game.

Happy CNY! :D

2012-01-29T02:05:00.000+08:00

Gong Xi Fa Cai!

Happy Chinese New Year, babies :)

How were your CNY celebrations?
Mine were kinda awesome!

Had the typical reunion dinner last Sunday at Vivo's Crystal Jade Dine in Restaurant!

Food ratings? 6/10 I guess..

So here are the photos!
Had dinner with relatives from my mom's side.

That's my uncle :) GUESS HOW OLD IS HE.

Left to Right: My eldest bro, second bro, uncle, me.

After dinner, we went over to Resort World Sentosa to watch the musical fountain and drink coffee at coffee bean (tradition)..

My uncle, me and my eldest bro!

Me and my bros! :)

My family :)

My second brother and I :) He just got back from Germany..he's gonna be staying in Singapore permanently after april!

My eldest bro :)

Talked all the way till 11plus and we headed home since we had church again the next day!

DAY ONE.

Day one of CNY.

Went to church for cny celebrations. Was the pianist that day..

WORE A CHEONG SAM FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE HAHAHA.

Church pastor and I :)

After church, went to visit my first aunt.

Then we headed home to grab some stuff, then we made our way to my grandma's house to have lunch.

My uncle introduced a new game to me, Rift. Quite fun actually!

My uncle and I :) GOT FAN FOR HAIR ALSO LOL.

GUESS WHO APPEARED?

My boyfriend <3

Then we headed to my second aunt's house!

My cousin, woonaik, and I :)

My baby cousin, Yongxin.

Okay technically, she's not my cousin. She's actually my niece. But, she's only 2 years younger than me, so I rather list her as my cousin. Fuck the generation thing LOL.

After that, baby and I had to leave early cos we were both heading to his grandma's house.

Stayed at his grandma's house for dinner and left at 7 plus for pastor's house.

Baby went with me and had steamboat :)

He left at around 9 plus.

Stayed and watched Big Bang Theory Season 5 with Joanna, my bros and eileen :)

Sean and Jamie then arrived, but we were leaving..

Headed home at around 12.

DAY TWO.

Didn't go visiting with my family on day two. Went to baby's other grandma's house for visiting in the afternoon!

Helped to do both his sisters' makeup.

Baby's parents. He looks A LOT like his dad.

Baby and I. I told him it looks like our wedding photo LOL. He said, it looks like we're dancing haha.

With baby and his sisters. Guess who is the youngest sister and the elder sister :) I GOT IT WRONG THE FIRST TIME I MET THEM LAST YEAR.

Baby's dad then drove us to their grandma's house!

His grandma made really awesome noodles for lunch and they were playing mj while we were playing 21.

I was losing really badly!

Baby got tired so we left at around 3 plus..took a cab back to his house.

Took a rest for an hour then we woke up to help out for the steamboat dinner.

Baby's relatives arrived at around 7!

Baby, Alfin and I went to the room and the two of them were talking about Dota while I was playing scrambler on my iphone.

After dinner, Alfin and I went to play 21 with baby's cousins while he went to play mj.

Alfin won the most so everyone stopped playing LOL!

Went outside to watch baby play mj.

At around 10 plus, the three of us headed down to bugis to play pool.

At 11plus, we went to play lan. I played one round of dota and I got so stressed up, I stopped and played with my phone LOL.

Stayed there till 2 plus 3..

Went back to baby's house and slept till the next day cos we were both extremely tired..

DAY THREE.

Went to watch "We Not Naughty" with baby's family and his cousins, Shermeen and Sherman.

After the movie, my mom told me that we were having Korean BBQ at home, so baby and I went back to my house..

Dinner was really awesome! :)

Baby stayed over that night.

DAY FOUR.

Had Jap class that night :(

Baby surprised me with this note..he wrote in my notebook while I was getting ready for Jap class and I only saw it while flipping the pages during class.

Sweet <3

Then my dad came to fetch baby and I from bugis, then we headed to my mom's charity group's president's house.

Went there for dinner and stayed for awhile before heading home.

DAY FIVE.

Baby came over in the morning, then we headed to Lot One to watch "Dance Dance Dragon" with my family :)

After the movie, we went over to my fifth aunt's house!

Sadly, my cousin, Justin wasn't home :(

My aunt prepared tea for us.

Buffalo wings, donuts from some hotel, sandwiches she made herself and fruits!

One thing I like about my aunt's house is that, its really cosy and when you enter her house, there will always be soothing music.

My mom took this for us :)

After that, we went back home and my second brother baked shepherd's pie for dinner!

My eldest bro and my dad both went for their own army gathering..

Baby stayed over again that night cos I wasn't feeling well.

Thanks baby <3 LOVE YOU!

DAY SIX

Went to my uncle's house at night and met with my cousins, Charlene and Royston.

Gambled till 10 plus, then I went downstairs with Royston to walk his new pomeranian puppy that looks like a Chihuahua.

She's really cute, I can even hold her on one arm!

No pictures taken today cos Royston didn't wear his hat -_-

No worries!

Gonna have a party at my house tomorrow so I'm definitely gonna take a few snapshots with him :)

Goodnight my sweetiepies! <3

2012 and who knows what will happen..

2012-01-03T02:51:00.002+08:00

Happy new year my delicious fishballs :)

How was your new year's countdown?

Mine, pretty much sucked..because..my boyfriend got called back to work while we were watching Sherlock Holmes.

So before the movie ended, we left and he took the train to work..

But he came over the next day and we just slept till my mom bought lunch back for us..

I BOUGHT MY JUICY COUTURE PERFUME AGAIN! :D
Gonna smell like freaking heaven! :)
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Have you guys wrote down your new year resolutions yet?

Well, here's mine!

1. TONE UP!
Seriously, ever since I stopped cheerleading, I BECAME FLABBY. Not good. So, I'm gonna start gyming with my boyfriend at California fitness and hopefully get fit again! Then I'll be able to eat whatever the hell I want.

2. LOSE WEIGHT!
Okay, I can't eat whatever the hell I want. Who am I trying to kid? I gain weight easily LOL. I need to lose till I'm 43kg. I'm currently 47.2kg. :(

3. WORK ON MY ATTITUDE (AGAIN)!
GDI. Idk what the hell is wrong with me but my attitude is starting to suck again. I'm getting hot-tempered and stuff. I've been bickering alot with my boyfriend recently due to my temper. So that has gotta change.

4. GET GOOD GRADES!
Well this is IF I get into ngee ann poly's psychology course which hopefully I will! Gotta mug like some crazy bitch for a good GPA score. I DON'T WANNA RETAKE SHIT AGAIN!

5. FORGIVE AND FORGET!
I hold onto grudges. Like, I can remember shit that happened to me when I was only 4 years old. I need to let go of them already. They're really irritating and they tend to hold me back and I can't move forward. I'll be scared and shit. Its kinda like, I don't want the same thing to happen again. But heck, I'm only 17 going on 18 this year, so I'm still young. If the same things happen again then screw it.

6. STOP DEGRADING MYSELF!
Well basically, all my close friends know that I'm a bitch to myself. Due to my past, I tend to think that my body isn't sacred or shit anymore. So when my friends tell me to protect myself, I'll just be like, "psh who the fuck cares about this fucked up body?" When I can't understand something, I tend to just say I'm stupid and stuff. All I ever do is think that I'm fucked up and that I never ever make the right choices for myself.

7. GET A FREAKING JOB!
Okay. I used to work as part time promoter for sony vaio laptops. THE PAY IS LIKE SHIT. I worked at Sitex and the pay was basic, $40 and the comm range is $10-35, working hours, 10.45am-10pm. For 4 days, I've earned quite alot actually, over 1k. Sitex was good because it was the end of the year..next was at courts somerset.

Honestly, I loved working at courts somerset. The colleagues were awesome! Terrence, YinYin, Michael, Andrew, another Andrew, our manager, Andy and a few others whom I forgot PLUS the security guards were all super super awesome!

I fainted on the first day of work there while having a break with Terrence and some other dude whose name I apparently forgot. I didn't eat for 2 days and I didn't sleep much the previous night because I was waiting for my boyfriend to go home.
So, Terrence was dragging me around because I was already on the floor and the security guards plus other people like, lifted me off the ground and started applying medicated oil on my head. Andy went to press the medicated oil at my cupid's bow which burned like crazy but helped with the headache. I woke up for awhile and asked Terrence if he could send me home, then I fainted again LOL.

Some dude carried me here and there and then I woke up. LIKE A FINALLY! Andrew and Terrence went to buy bread and Milo for me and I had no appetite at all! The guards and the manager just kept telling me to stop going on a diet and kept asking me to eat more.

SEE WHAT I MEAN BY I LOVE THE PEOPLE THERE?! THEY ARE ALL SO AWESOME AND NICE! :)

During the f1 roadshow, Andrew was in charge of the camera booths while I was promoting vaio laptops..he would usually come and disturb me cos there is no sales at f1 so i was always bored haha. Terrence would also come down to find us and buy us drinks cos Alson from the acer side would always call him to buy drinks for us. My colleague Chun Jing a.k.a CJ would always chat with me when we have no customers haha.

During the last show, megatex, my boyfriend and I quit on the first day. COS OUR BOSS IS LIKE FUCKED UP. So yeah, NOW I NEED A JOB. K THANKS LOL. I was supposed to work at zenitant with my boyfriend as a facilitator but because I'm not a jc/poly student I got rejected. So..yeah.

But right now I wanna send a little shout out to all my previous colleagues :)

Thanks you guys for making my job experience as a part time promoter so awesome!! You guys are the best and maybe if I'm really desperate for a job I may go back but then I WILL NOT HAVE THE SAME STUPID IC. hehehehe.

Terrence: Thanks for taking care of me at work! I even kicked you when I fainted and your jacket ended up being really dirty. Thanks for teaching me stuff on being better at being a promoter :) Hopefully, your shop would open soon! Will drop by for a visit! :D

Yin Yin: Prettygirl! Thanks for being so hyper at work and always making my day so awesome even though we're all so tired cos we're forever standing up! :) Goodluck with your projects and schoolwork! <3

Both the andrews: I put both your names together cos its easier haha. Thanks Andrew for always making sure that I've had my meal and the other Andrew, thanks for entertaining me during the It show :) ALTHOUGH YOU KEPT STEALING MY PANDA.

CJ: BAOBEI! Thanks for always being there for me! Apparently, you're always there when I need you! Sorry if my boyfriend scared you during f1, he was just teasing you :) Thanks for being such a qtpie!

To the rest of my colleagues: YOU GUYS ARE AWESOME! <3

Last but not least,

8. TO BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME!
I think this resolution would work out because I have super awesome friends around me! Not to mention my family, my relatives and my boyfriend <3 LOVE YOU ALL! xoxo.

Shout out to my boyfriend:

Hi baby,
Thanks for tolerating me all the time and I'm sorry for being a bitch at times.
Hopefully the new year will make me into a better person!
Don't overwork yourself okay?
Love you!

Happy new year my lovelies and hope that 2012 would be an awesome year for you.
*hopefully 21/12/2012 doesn't happen hehehehe*

HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

2011-12-31T02:28:00.000+08:00

Hello my little buttercookies! :)

I just came back from Malaysia with my boyfriend and his family 2 days ago.
WE SPAMMED PICTURES LIKE TWO CRAZY TOURISTS HAHA.

So in the year 2011 I didn't spend christmas with my family here in Singapore.

Instead, I went to Malaysia with my boyfriend and his family for 5 days and 4 nights.
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I stayed over at his house on the 23rd of Dec..

The next morning, we all got ready and loaded up his uncle's lorry and we got on...

We took off for Golden mile tower and met the rest there.

Boarded the bus at around 9?
Then we were off to KL.

Shots taken on the bus.

Our first stop was Petaling Street which is basically KL's chinatown..

We stayed at the Ancasa Hotel which was honestly not bad just that there was basically no water to shower with!

After loading everything off at the hotel we went for dinner!!!
We had the traditional bak kut teh :D

Then we went straight to the streets for window shopping..

I BOUGHT MY FREAKING MAN UTD JERSEY HAAHAHAH FINALLY!
I bought the one with Chicharito's name cos they didn't have berbatov's and I didn't wanna buy Nani's or Rooney's.

At around 7plus we went back to the hotel to relax for awhile..
Then at 9 we went to eat wanton noodles!!

We went to the wrong wanton noodle stall..therefore we ate stale noodles.

Went for leg massage with my boyfriend and his cousins..extremely relaxing!

Funny shit that happened at the massage place..

Masseuse: Are you two paying together or seperately? Together right? Since you're a couple.
Me: Ummmm..seperately.
Boyfriend: -checks wallet- pay together first.
Me: Okay.
Masseuse: Awww! Your boyfriend is a keeper! Its good to have a guy who pays for the girl.
Me: Huh? I gotta pay back later.
Masseuse: HUH?! Can throw away already.
Boyfriend and I: what the fuck.

Then the Masseuse went on to say that in China guys have to pay for the girls and blahblahblah..WE'RE SINGAPOREANS!

After the massage we went back to the hotel to wash up and had supper with the family at my boyfriend's parents' room.

SERIOUSLY, WHEN MY BOYFRIEND'S FAMILY EATS SUPPER, IT IS LIKE A BUFFET.

See what I mean?

That's all for the first night.

The next morning, we had breakfast at some wanton noodle place which feels like we're back in the 60s.

THE WANTON NOODLES THERE ARE TO DIE FOR! EXTREMELY YUMMYLICIOUS!

Then we went on with our shopping again! :)

At 1plus we checked out of the hotel and went to berjaya times square!!! THE SHOPPING PARADISE!

Bought new black/red high cut supra shoes at 40SGD, new wedges at 30SGD, US print bikini at 38SGD, black tank top 4SGD, blue contact lens at 15SGD and a brown leather bag at 12SGD.

Went past a costume shop and saw this mask..

Am I pretty? :)

While waiting for the rest we went to eat at Krispy Kreme..

I ordered the new york cheesecake while baby ordered the vanilla umm something LOL.

THEM DOUGHNUTS TASTED LIKE HEAVEN!

my gel nails :) went to get them done with baby's cousin.

77SGD!

(gel nails, nail care and design.)

Then we went back in to take pictures in front of the christmas tree!

I feel bad letting him carry all the shopping bags :(

Perfect shot :)

We went back to our rooms and slept cos we're all extremely tired..

The next morning we checked out at 10 then we waited for the bus to go to GENTING RESORT HOTEL!

group shot before leaving times square hotel.

Reached Genting at around 12?

Baby bought the bouquet for me when we were at Petaling St.

Had lunch at some place before checking in.

Took a picture with baby's cousin, Shermeen. :)

Then we went to our hotel rooms and unpacked..

Spent the first day at Genting just walking around and doing stupid things with my boyfriend..

Went to get an airbrush rose tattoo on the left side of my chest cos I got bored and wanted to spend money on ridiculous stuff since you're a rich fucker in Malaysia hahahah.

At night, baby and I got ready to go to the club at Genting called Safari.

The quality sucks because of the lighting at the club.

Baby had a vodka mixed with 7up while I had a carlsberg.

Then, we decided to order a tower.

Baby fell asleep at the counter cos he was tired so I just spammed myself with the tower..

I went back to the hotel drunk LOL.

Woke up the next morning with a serious headache and I was in a really bad mood...

Then we went to the theme park with baby's cousins..

For starters we went for the 4D movie..

After the movie we went to play the swing!!!! :)

The queue was a killer but it wasn't as bad as the queue for the rollercoaster.

WE WAITED AT LEAST AN HOUR FOR THE ROLLERCOASTER RIDE..

finally we're nearing the end of the line..

Then at 3.30, baby and I had to leave cos we were going to catch the Jet Li movie!

It was in 3D also!

I fell asleep throughout the movie...know why?

IT WAS IN FREAKING CANTONESE.

Then we went to walk around before dinner...

Baby bought the hat for me LOL wtf right? But its cute and furry!

Then we walked to first world hotel to snack at Starbucks! :)

MY CHICKEN PIE! :D baby said i looked like I'm eating my chicken pie sneakily lololol.

Then i went to spend my last 50RM on a "tramp stamp" hehehehehe.

Then we had dinner with his family :)

Went to take the swing at night again with my boyfriend...

Went back to the hotel and slept..so tired.

Woke up at 9 the next morning and got ready for breakfast..

While waiting for the bus to arrive, baby and I went out to take a few more shots.

That's all for the 5 day trip.

AND NOW I'M DOWN WITH THE FLU AND SORE THROAT..SIGH.

Anyways, happy new year's eve people :)

LOVE YOU ALL!

December is MIGHTY amusing..

2011-12-16T22:14:00.001+08:00

Alright guys, I'm just posting this since I'm at my boyfriend's house waiting for him to get back from the gym..

So, SINGAPORE!
I'm sure you guys know what the hell has been happening in december and maybe late november right?

Let's start with the earliest issue:

ADELYN HOSEHBO!

This issue is cleared up already I guess but this girl is still freaking famous here in singapore LOL.

She's a 14 year old girl who is a what you call, ah lian (a.k.a wannabe female gangster)

She posted on her facebook saying that she slapped her mother and she's extremely happy about it..
Then she goes on to say that she didn't post it after the incident got put up on stomp..

Babe seriously, if you didn't post it, then why don't you just delete it before it got posted on stomp?

She went on to say that she stole her mom's jewels and pawned them for an extremely large sum of money!
She even posted in on facebook -_-

Nice going yeah.
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Second issue..

AARON TAN.

Now this is just plain childishness seriously.

watch this if you haven't:

Dude, you're 18 and you lost your girl to a 14 year old kid.
Doesn't that mean anything?

It means, the 14 year old kid has much more maturity in him to show care and concern to your girl than you do.

Don't go around posting death threats on youtube which by the way, is an international viewing site and make us Singaporeans lose face!

Your video has seriously gone viral!

AND HOW DO YOU PRONOUNCE PLEASE?
WHAT?

PRIEST?!

Seriously, if you wanna go be a priest, at least get rid of your immaturity first.
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Third issue:

Some dude in America/Canada or wherever saw Aaron Tan's death threat video on youtube. (like I said, it is an international viewing site)

So his name is..FadedHolySoldier.

On his first video, basically he insulted Singapore's culture by saying that we speak broken english and that ALL asians can't say please...

Well, being humans, we do retaliate.

So some of our citizens went on to his youtube video and basically spat racist comments.

OF COURSE HE'LL BE UPSET!

But man, you deserved it.

You insulted a whole nation based on one dude..
Now, how would you feel if we insulted the whole of whichever country you came from based on your attitude?

Idk if you take pride in your country but in Singapore, DAMN WE ARE PATRIOTIC!

So in this dude's second video, he said that all Singaporeans are racist..YO DUDE! YOU NEED TO STOP GENERALIZING PEOPLE.

In his third video, he said that the people of Singapore cannot understand sarcasm, they're uptight and they're too obnoxious.

FIRST OF ALL..

In what way is, "fuck you singapore" sarcasm?

Secondly...

In what way is protecting our country's reputation being uptight?

Thirdly...

HOW THE HELL ARE WE OBNOXIOUS?!

Fourthly,

he said we are too serious.

Man, if we ain't serious, we'll be bombed by terrorists by now..
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Fourth issue:

WHY ARE THERE TWO FREAKING TEENAGERS FUCKING AT A PUBLIC AREA?! LOL!

Okay, I know, guys are wild and mischevious..but, seriously?

In the video, I can see that the girl is seriously uncomfortable with the situation but apparently, the guy literally just took her hand and made her give him a handjob..

Then he went on to make her sit on his dick and fuck her -_-

DUDE SERIOUSLY! SHE'S IN HER FUCKING SCHOOL UNIFORM! IF SHE GETS CAUGHT, SHE'LL GET INTO TROUBLE..MENTALLY RETARDED OR SOMETHING?!

Seriously, the boy just gave me the creeps cos he looked like some crazy dude looking for sex...

I think they're only 14 or 15..
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so yup...singapore has been mighty interesting for the month of december...

HAPPY HOLIDAYS! :D

oh..and my boyfriend and I quit our sony vaio job today during our 3rd it show LOL!!

Awesome supper with a really awesome boyfriend.

2011-12-01T00:22:00.001+08:00

Just a short post to talk about my day.

My darling came over today after his 2A bike practical.

Congrats love, you've completed your practical! :)

We had dinner together and he had to leave at 8.45pm for his driving practical. Sigh busy boy. *shakes head*

Then mom came in and told me that my boyfriend left his house key here.

Texted him and he called me after his practical and asked me to go for supper.
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Got ready and waited for him to come and pick me up.

While waiting, my dad was talking me about the iphone game, Temple Run. HAHA.

Baby got here at around 11 and we went to rail mall and ate supper.

LOOK AT OUR FREAKING SUPPER.

I had the toast set, which is basically, 2 half boiled eggs, 2 pieces of toast and cold dark chocolate which is just freaking chocolate fresh milk. CHEAT MY MONEY!

My qtpie! <3 LOVE HIM TO BITS!

DON'T JUDGE. I SLEPT AT 6AM LAST NIGHT AND I DON'T HAVE ANY MAKEUP ON AT ALL.

Just reached home, my baby went home.

Washed up and now..I have no idea what I'm gonna do other than wait for him to call.

Awesome supper with a really awesome boyfriend totally made my day <3

I love you sweetie!
Whether rich or for poor or whatever..
We'll still love each other, forever and always..

Life can't get better than this.

2011-11-30T04:50:00.000+08:00

I'm back to blogging again!

So, life has been pretty hectic recently..

Here's for starters..

I LOST MY CLUBGINITY HAHAHAH.

Went to zirca on the 17th of november with my lovely boyfriend, my babies, fran, yingjia, james, prom girls and some other people.

It was a mixage event and we got a guestlist at the very last minute from james' friend.

Here's what happened..

We had a pre drinking session at the ORD bridge.
( I don't know why it is named the ORD bridge. I guess its because, ns men go there once they've ended their 2 years? )

We waited for yingjia to arrive and we met the prom girls.

ETHEL IS MISS THERESIAN!!!! <3

Then we headed to zirca when we were done with our jaegerbomb.

We hid the remaining jaegermeister in a bush somewhere and decided to come back once we were done fooling around in the club.

We got our tickets and waited to get in line.

James, Yingjia and I were holding onto our real ics so we were below 18, therefore, my boyfriend and fran could enter the 18 and above line first.
While we were waiting, my boyfriend came back and told us that fran got bounced out and dragged to the garage or whatever.

The bloody bouncers were assholes.
They punch girls. Seriously?! Wtf is this?

I expected my first clubbing experience to be bad but not SO bad like getting my friend punched.

So I was already quite pissed off.

Then we finally got in.
My boyfriend decided to get us some tequila shots.

Guess what?

No sale of alcohol to people under the age of 18 but we get free coke/sprite.

Yingjia and I met brigette and her friend and we spammed pictures together.

My boyfriend kept trying to get me to go dancing with him but I wasn't in the mood cos I was hoping that fran would get past the bouncers and join us on the dancefloor.

In the end, my boyfriend "lifted me off my feet" and managed to make me dance.

After fran and james got in, we danced for awhile and we left after dancing for about 20 or 30 mins?

My boyfriend and I went to get drinks and food and slacked with fran and james on the bridge for awhile before heading back to my boyfriend's house.

Cabbed back and stayed over at his house. (:
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Alright here's the main course.

I GOT A FREAKING JOB.

yes, charmaine wong is working. NOT ADMIN. but as a promoter for sony.

My boyfriend suddenly texted me one day and told me that he saw Yolzie post on her facebook saying that there's a job offer for being a promoter for sony laptops during sitex it fair at expo.

I called her dad and he passed my boyfriend and my info to the boss.

Fran was supposed to work with us but didn't in the end.

So we were hired and training was to be held on the 22nd of november.

There were altogether 22 people working at the same booth as my boyfriend and I, excluding the sony tablet crew and the full timers.

Since sitex was at expo and I live in the freaking west, my parents allowed me to stay over at my boyfriend's house for the next 4 days.

On the first night, I slept with his sisters in their room.
It was so awkward that I only fell asleep at 4 am and i woke up at 730am.

We arrived at the expo at 9am and we went in to have a briefing by our boss.

I only sold 2 laptops on the first day and it wasn't even a real sell.

I sold my 1st laptop through the hourly special whereby someone has to grab my card and he has to pay for the laptop at the promotional price.

My 2nd laptop was sold...to my parents. Technically, it is the laptop I'm using now (:
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On the 2nd day, I sold 3 laptops and 1 tablet.

I spent most of my time during the first two days, talking and giving out flyers hehehe.

On the 3rd day, I sold 6 laptops.

My boyfriend helped me with the last one (: Thanks sweetie <3

ON THE LAST DAY..I SOLD 11 LAPTOPS AND 2 TABLETS.

This is how we are paid..

Our basic pay is $40, commission is $10-$35.

On the last day, we overshot our target of 180 and therefore, our boss decided to add $5 to each laptop or tablet that we sold on the last day.

my total pay is : $605.

Kinda happy (:

Oh, on the 3rd day, fran, yol and leonard came to visit!

They took this photo for my baby and I (:

my babycakes and I (: baby said we look like we're wearing couple tees hahahaah.

Fyi, I'm wearing a fucking "s" size shirt -_-

Oh and today, I had to transfer stuff from my old laptop to my new one so, this was what it looked like..

Two sony vaio laptops. I look like a retard.

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Now for dessert..

My boyfriend and I have been together for 7 months plus already and I have never ever showed him how much i truly love him.

I guess I'm just..

A COWARD.

The fear of being rejected, the fear of change, the fear of being taken advantaged of.

But most of the time, I'm just afraid of not being good enough for him.

Even though we're only 4 years apart, it still feels like, i can't be good enough.

I'm not mature enough, not knowledgeable enough...

Sometimes, I really wish i wasn't born in 94, but born in 90 instead.

But we don't always get what we want, do we?

But I really do love him alot.

"7 months with you my love (:
It has been really fun, having all my first experiences with you!
Working together, concerts together, clubbing together, hanging out together, going overseas together..
I have never felt so complete in my whole life.
I love you my dear..

Always have and always will."

I'll, love you forever, forever and always.

Through the good and the bad and the ugly.

We'll still love each other,

Forever and always.

Lost in the stereo sound~

2011-10-07T03:16:00.001+08:00

Still can't guess what the post is gonna be about after reading the title?

Well...

I JUST CAME BACK FROM ALL TIME LOW'S CONCERT!!!!! :D

(photo credit to Leonard!)

I saw Alex Gaskarth, Jack Barakat, Zack Merrick and Rian Dawson IN REAL FUCKING LIFE!!!

Well, here's how it happened..

If you guys follow me on twitter, you'll know the whole story.
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So apparently, my boyfriend asked me to go vivo with him today to check out vans as he wanted to buy a pair. So I agreed to go with him.

We then decided to catch a movie and we went to watch Real Steel!!!!

Awesome show by Hugh Jackman! The little boy was really cute too. *pedophile alert*

After the movie, my boyfriend then told me not to ask him any questions for the next half an hour.

Being born into the "why" generation, asking questions is a natural habit to me.

So, I just kept asking him questions even though I promised him that I wouldn't ask anything.

Then he said, "Let's be random for once and go to Sentosa."

Clad in heels, shorts and a long white top, I went, "WTF YOU NUTS?!"

But that didn't stop him from dragging me to Sentosa.
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When we reached Sentosa, he tried to whisper to the dude and asked for directions to Wavehouse.

But sadly, the dude didn't know about the surprise and said loudly, "Wavehouse is over there!"

Then I thought to myself, "wait, why is he tryna find directions to wavehouse? Isn't it sad enough that I can't go to ATL's concert but yet we're still going to where its being held?"

We took the tram to wavehouse and when we arrived, there was the ticket collection booth.

My boyfriend then told me he wants to try to get tickets and I said, that's not possible.

We walked up to the counter and the counter guy asked if we were collecting tickets and we need to give him the ic and credit card.

MY BOYFRIEND JUST TOOK OUT HIS IC AND CARD AND I SAW HIS NAME ON THE LIST.

I just screamed and went nuts and said WHAT THE FUCK.

Apparently!!!!

My boyfriend went to buy the tickets online yesterday morning and called my mom to tell her that he's going to bring me out late for the concert! So both of them hid this surprise from me.

MY BOYFRIEND IS SO FUCKING SWEET!!!!!

I've always wanted to go to ATL's concert but they never ever come to Singapore.

FINALLY THEY'RE HERE AND I GET TO SEE THEM AND HEAR THEM IN REAL LIFE THANKS TO MY DEAR BOY!!!!!!

Then I saw fran, yingjia and some of our seniors in line...

I was so overjoyed that I couldn't give two shits about the heavy downpour.

But, my shirt was translucent so, my boyfriend decided to change shirts with me. So I ended up wearing his grey top while he wore my translucent top. LOLOLOL. I love him <3

We had to wait for 2 hours before ATL performed due to the stupid rain :(

Two girls were sweet enough to share with me their umbrella. HOW SWEET?!

Then I met brigette and her friend near the bar, then Leonard finally arrived..
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We were all drenched and freezing and my legs hurt due to my wedges but...

ITS FREAKING ALL TIME LOW, SO THE PAIN IS WORTH IT!!!!!!

Finally at 10pm, the concert started!!!!!!!!

Omg, when I saw Alex, I nearly fainted!

These are the songs I heard while I was there: forget about it, damned if I do ya, poppin champagne, i feel like dancin', time bomb, jasey rae and one more song that I can't recall.

SADLY!

I had to leave halfway because I was sending my mom off as she was heading to Taiwan!

AND..when i left, they played my top favourite songs -_-

-Lost in stereo
-Remembering Sunday
-THERAPY
-Six feet under the stars
-Weightless
-Dear Maria

PISSED OFF BUT STILL HAPPY THAT I HEARD MOST OF MY OTHER FAVOURITE SONGS FROM ALL TIME LOW AND I GET TO ENJOY MYSELF WITH MY LOVE AND MY FRIENDS!!

After we got out from the concert, I saw the staff selling ATL's tshirt!!!

I IMMEDIATELY BOUGHT ONE AT 50 BUCKS!

Impulsive but HELLO?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!? ATL!!!!!!

Today was a really awesome day!!!!!

My boyfriend made my life complete :)

I love you my dear and you are extremely awesome to me! <3

LUCKY TO HAVE YOU AS MY BOYFRIEND!!!!!!!!

The issue about looks.

2011-10-01T02:20:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wished that you wouldn't have to be so worried about your looks?

Well, I wish that every single day.

It sucks to feel miserable everyday and thinking so lowly of yourself everyday.

Sometimes, you just wanna wake up and think that its gonna be an awesome day and be more optimistic. I seriously wish, I could do something like that.

But..no.

I wake up and check if I've gotten any fatter/if I look uglier/if my hair is horrible and etc.

Vainpot? Well, who isn't?

Don't tell me you aren't unless you really can't be bothered about how you look.

And guys, please don't say you're not a vainpot as well.
I bet half of you out there are always checking yourselves out in the mirror wanting to be buffer, or hotter and whatsoever.

Everyone wants to look good.

I mean, its normal.

First impression means alot right?

So usually, people judge BASED on what they see.

For example, a guy judges a girl based on how pretty she is and if he is attracted to her, then he'll go find out about her personality.

Same for the girls.

Yeah most girls will tell you, "idgaf about looks, its all about personality."

Well, for some, they may be telling the truth, but the others?
They're just tryna butter you up.

Due to the issue of looks..

Girls are desperately trying to lose weight, go on a diet, hardcore workouts, splashing on makeup, dyeing their hair till they go bald.

Guys are working out to be super buff, some even taking steroids/muscle growing powder or whatever...

Its because of looks that most people keep thinking that they're ugly and making their own lives miserable.

Take me for example,

I used to be really ugly.

Short hair like a dude, fat, can't be bothered about the way I dress and etc.

I dressed like a dude and some people seriously mistook me for a guy.

Then I changed and became like a normal looking person...

I started leaving my hair long, learned makeup, dyed my hair, lost weight, changed my dressing sense.....

Here's the diff:

Boyish looking me= unattractive.

Normal looking me= averagely okay.

See the difference?

I go out way more often now than when I was looking like a dude.

I don't know why but seriously, looks are a major key to survive in this world other than education and social skills.

So yeah, LIFE IS TOUGH.

My dieting plans..

2011-09-20T16:52:00.000+08:00

I'm back to dieting and workouts..

Why?

COS I'M LIKE 50KG RIGHT NOW AND MY HEIGHT IS 162CM.

My previous weight was 43kg :(

So this is my current diet and workout plan...

Diet:

Breakfast: Half-boiled eggs with bread and hot tea /cereal with low fat milk/a bun.
Lunch: Apples and water.
Dinner: quarter bowl of rice, soup, veggies, bits of whatever my maid made.
Snacks: Fruits.

I don't eat supper FYI and no eating after 7.30pm unless I'm out having dinner with my parents.

Workout:

Everyday:
30mins on the stationary bicycle.
100 crunches.

Everynight:
2 reps of 50 bicycle crunches.
Yoga pose: Upward Bow. Hold position for 50 secs.

Yup...

That's about it.

I've got to lose my fats and my weight before my Batam trip this Saturday!!

CURFEWS

2011-08-12T23:40:00.000+08:00

As you all know..most teens have curfews and their curfews all end when they turn 13.

Me?

I'm still having a curfew at 10.30pm.

Now, why am I so upset about it?

If you're one of those people who never had a curfew/ended your curfew a long time ago, then please don't give me your fucking bullshit of curfew is good for you because I swear you know that you've complained about your curfew before.

You know what most teens with curfew end up with?

1. Itsy bitsy social circle.
2. Grow fat.
3. LOUSY JOB.

Why?

1. They only have half a day to mingle with people.
2. They stay home and eat and eat and eat because their over protective parents won't let them go out after 10.30pm.
3. Due to the lack of friends, they have to find retarded jobs to help them improve on their social skills to go for better jobs WHEN THEY'RE FUCKING 30. when people who never had a curfew are working as admins, doctors, lawyers, whatever high paying job there is because they have friends who would hire them.

Another reason why I don't wanna have a curfew?

JUST LOOK AT MY FAMILY MEMBERS!

Both my older brothers had their curfew periods.

Now what are they doing?

One flew off to Germany and only comes back home for HOLIDAYS.

The other one, CAN BARELY TALK TO GIRLS COS HE IS SHY. Hangs out with the same group of friends all the time and..never seem to experience anything other than school, school, school, army, school. -_-

Well at least he has army, MOST OF MY LIFE IS...school..school..school.

So when I die, I'll die as a person who went through 23 years of schooling and, the next 40 years as a boring worker who has never experienced the nightlife as a youth.

Whenever people tell me, "It's good for you," " You parents are just worried you'll get raped cos you're so pretty."

Then when I ask them, why is it good for me?

No reply/it's just good for you.

Here's something for you people (:

Go.
Fuck.
Yourselves.

Then here comes the people who say I'm not independent enough, I'm not mature enough.

WELL DUH!

I'm not independent because I'm fucking under parental guidance when I'm already over the controlling age of 16, I'm not mature enough because I'm always staying home and not knowing what the hell is happening outside cos I'm filled with homework at home and turning fat and not giving a fuck shit cos i'm fat.

Here comes the most ridiculous part.

When I was 15, I asked my parents, when will you guys stop my curfew.

Oh after your o's.

After my o's, I failed, but nvm, I don't mind another year of curfew.

Then I asked again this year, so my curfew will end when I'm 18? (:

HELL NO! YOU'RE ONLY 18, YOU'RE A GIRL. YOUR BROTHER DIDN'T EVEN STOP HIS CURFEW TILL HE WAS 21.

Yup, the same old shit just that the previous time the story was, your bro didn't even stop his curfew till he was 18.

Now everyone knows I love my parents.

But sometimes, I just feel like running away from home and experiencing night life for ONCE.

Cos once I grow old I WON'T HAVE A FUCKING CHANCE OF EXPERIENCING IT WITHOUT ANY WORRIES OTHER THAN RAPISTS AND ETC.

Cos when I go past 23, its time for work and after work, its back home and then there's marriage.

Go work, come home, take care of baby, sleep. CYCLE REPEATS FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

Sometimes, I know I shouldn't be envious of my friends' parents cos I love mine BUT, how I would love to have parents who would let me enjoy myself if I study. Now when I study, I still have a fucking curfew. No wonder I can't be bothered cos my whole life would just be studying and working and then I die.

IT'S THE 21ST CENTURY ALREADY!!!! CAN YOU TWO PLEASE STOP THINKING ITS THE 19TH CENTURY WHEREBY PEOPLE WOULD JUST CHOP ME UP INTO PIECES AND RAPING ME EVERY NOW AND THEN?! COME ON. IF IT WERE STILL LIKE BEFORE, THEN WHAT'S THE POINT OF HAVING GOVERNMENT ELECTIONS NOW AND THEN?!

I swear people who hang out till late will think I'm fucking retarded when my parents let me stay out till 11.30pm the latest -_- then I start rejoicing. Damn. I'm starting to sound like those anti social people who can only come out from their shell every once in a blue moon.

Its seriously not that I'm desperate to go clubbing and stuff that's why I wanna grow up quick. IT'S COS I WANNA GET RID OF THIS FUCKING RIDICULOUS CURFEW AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. COS I MIGHT JUST HANG MYSELF IF I HAVE TO TOLERATE ANOTHER DAY OF PEOPLE REMINDING ME THAT I CAN'T EVEN GO OUT TO HAVE FUCKING SUPPER WITH MY BOYFRIEND IF IT GOES PAST 10.30pm. WHO THE FUCK HAS SUPPER AT 9PM?!

Perhaps you're doing all these so I wouldn't blame you in the future. Well, guess what. In society now, social circles are a major key in living here. Keeping the curfew on till I'm fucking 21. Don't blame me if I keep staying in this house with a low paying job, no social circle, whining and complaining everyday calling for my mummy and daddy to help me when they're in wheelchairs or crutches. When you start getting annoyed, don't forget, you started it with the curfew thingy leading me to have a useless life (:

Disappointment.

2011-08-03T17:17:00.000+08:00

Girls are ALWAYS expecting.

But, what's the point?

EXPECTATIONS ALWAYS LEADS TO DISAPPOINTMENT.

Why?

Because once you get your hopes up and if he can't meet your expectations, you get sad and disappointed and both of you will quarrel and the relationship gets sour and you start feeling insecure.

But, think about it. Who is the one who ACTUALLY caused the disappointment.

Read carefully and you'll find out that you're the one who caused your own disappointment.

Guys can't read your mind. They won't know WHEN you need to be praised or WHEN you need attention.

Girls will then think, "Why isn't he commenting on my outfit/makeup/hair today? I took so long to get ready for him.." OR "why isn't he paying any special attention to me today?"

Then the insecurities start. You'll start to think that he doesn't care about you, he has someone else blahblahblah.

Babes...

Guys will give you the attention and praise when THEY feel there's a need to.

If you expect them to do it at the time you want it then..what's the specialty in the attention and praise?

Trust me, its going to be either

1) You get bored and sick of his constant praise and attention and you start to think of him as a sticky person and leave him..

OR

2) He gets sick and tired of having to praise you everyday and give you constant attention everytime he talks to/ meet you.

What will both of it lead to? A break up or a HARDCORE fight.

Now those are the two main things that couples are always trying to avoid.

So doesn't this just prove that expectations are a bad thing?

Just, lay back, relax and just let things come to you..

Don't demand him to pay attention to you just cos you need some and don't demand him to always assure you that you're the only one for him.

If you're not the only one for him now, I don't see why he should bother to talk to you or spend time with you.

Guys really can't stand a girl's insecurities.

But..yeah we're all human beings, we do have insecurities BUT..

Insecurities such as jealousy are cute and its understandable with just a simple explanation but insecurities such as..not believing that your boy only loves you then..its a turn off to guys cos it just simply shows that you don't trust him.

What turns a guy off the most? You not trusting him at all.

Don't give me the bullshit like.." I do trust him but he's not making me trust him at all."

In what way is he not making you trust him?

Just cos he's not giving you the assurance that you need at that point of time but at other times he's always assuring you that he only loves you?

If he does things like..hanging out with another girl or..gives you excuses when he's actually doing something to make you upset..then yeah the trust is lost obviously but if its because of the assurance and praise thingy then please slap yourself for me.

So this is the disappointment that girls face..when actually the disappointment is caused by themselves.

Just live life happily with your loved one and stop feeling like he doesn't love you when actually he does..

BUT.

If he starts showing signs such as...

1) Ignoring you for no apparent reason.
2) Scolding you when its actually his fault.
3) Going out with another girl more often but claiming that she's just a good friend.
4) Stop assuring/caring completely.
5) Stops meeting you.

Then here are 3 ways for you to handle this.

1) Talk to him about it and settle it in a gentle manner.
2) Break up.
3) Castrate him THEN break up (: LOL!!!!

What defies a perfect girlfriend?

2011-07-08T18:23:00.000+08:00

Guys are visual creatures as many of us know...

SO..obviously the first thing that will capture their attention is LOOKS.

1. Pretty.

2. Perfect dress sense.

3. Hot body.

That's basically what every girl wishes to be.

But..nothing is ever fair in this world.

Next is a girl's PERSONALITY.

Guys are physical creatures and outdoorsy kind of people..

SO...

1. Outgoing

2. Sporty

3. Active

4. NON LAZY

Next is how a girl BEHAVES during the relationship.

1. Sweet

2. Romantic

3. Loving

4. *applies to some guys only* Clingy

These 4 are behaviours that I do not possess.

I'm not the sweet, romantic, loving and clingy kinda girl. Guess its cos, I'm fearful of those already.

What did those 4 behaviours lead me to? Break ups, suicide attempts..etc.

Why would I wanna go through all of that again?

I know, girls tend to become MORE AND MORE possessive once they become clingy towards their boyfriends and believe me, jealousy is the most torturous emotion anyone can ever experience in their life.

Ways to know when I'm jealous. (basically its the same as when I'm angry)

1. My face becomes really really fucking hot.

2. I keep quiet.

3. I focus on my phone instead.

4. My attitude becomes fucked up for awhile.

I know why some girls don't wanna let their boyfriends know when they're jealous.

BECAUSE...

This is what the guy will ALWAYS, I mean..ALWAYS reply.

"You're thinking too much", "stop being so sensitive", "she's just a friend", "there's nothing going on between me and her", "why don't you trust me?"

Then it becomes more annoying when you're already quite jealous and he still asks you, "are you jealous?"

Dammit, you ask us this but when we say we are, you throw us all those responses. Why would we wanna tell you how we feel next time?

Is this seriously one of the reasons why girls suffer more in a relationship?

Because they don't have the freedom to tell their boyfriends how they feel?

The most fucked up scenario I've experienced last time is...

Guy and girl: HELLO!!!!! *chatting away happily and totally ignoring my existence*

Me: *says hi to girl and girl replies back*

Guy: eh we go buy drinks first.

Girl: Okay can.

Then, I'm left alone at the table. *And I sat there listening to them laughing like crazy far away*

And for the whole entire time, I was sitting there, feeling like a 3rd party and focusing on my phone only.

This happened a few years back.

Who said such scenarios have not happened again?

It has actually repeated a few times just that I chose to ignore it.

I'm not going to be the stupid, useless, pathetic girl who goes home and cry her heart out just cos she's jealous.

I mean, who wouldn't be jealous if your boyfriend treats another girl way sweeter than you, RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU and like totally ignore you, other than asking you to do stuffs for him?

The most fucked up thing? After she leaves, he starts giving shitty attitudes when he's alone with you..

The first time that happened in 2008, I almost shouted, "If its so boring to be with me, why don't you go hang with her instead? It's not like you're the only person in my life."

I won't deny that I'm a possessive person.

But I'm changing to become a happy go lucky girl.

I did that once and what the fuck happened? I got used as a toy while the mofo was still dreaming of someone else.

Whoever thinks that a relationship is easy to maintain, you can go ahead and fuck yourselves.

Relationship is like a fucking dangerous rollercoaster.

There will be happy times, special times, sweet times and loving times when you feel like there's only the 2 of you in the whole world.

Then there will be sad, lonely, heartbreaking times where you feel that he/she is going to leave you for someone better.

Well, we all have to face it.

There will always be someone better than ourselves.

No one is perfect in this world, that's why I don't get why some guys keep talking about getting a perfect girlfriend but they still can't find one. Like, HELLO? You ain't perfect yourself so stop thinking so highly of yourself and get someone more suitable for you.

Girls are always trying to lose weight, look prettier and stuff for their man.

Trust me, I know how it feels because, come on...

I used to be some fucking fat bitch but managed to lose weight and lose my baby fats....

Why?

One of my ex asked me to lose weight.

Another one of my ex pressurized me to lose weight.

Last but not least, I feel pressurized when..my boyfriend is like fucking toned and I'm like..flabby cos I've stopped cheerleading training for a year.

What do I do? I go on a diet.

I have a history of gastric problems and I'm always throwing up after eating because my stomach can't digest the food properly.

Another thing that I always see repeat itself is the way the guy treats the girl.

1st scenario:

Girl: Baby, are we talking on the phone tonight?

Guy: Erm, I don't think so. Not free.

Girl: Oh, why?

Guy: Just not free lah.

Girl: Oh. Okay.

(Fucking cannot reply nicely.)

Then one day later, the girl finds out that he was out with another girl last night.

Girl: Why didn't you tell me the truth?

Guy: Cos I don't want you to go into your whole jealous mood again, it's fucking annoying. There's nothing going on between me and her anyways. You're so sensitive. Why would I wanna tell you?

Girl: Maybe cos I'm your girlfriend and you mean alot to me so I don't wanna lose you?

Guy: Well, if you're going to be so possessive, maybe we should just break up.

Messed up.

2nd scenario:

*girl asks the guy something*

Guy: I'm gaming lah, stop disturbing me.

*girl waits till the guy stops gaming*

Girl: So tomorrow where should we go?

Guy: Idk, up to you.

Girl: Idk also ley.

Guy: Wlao, everything also don't know don't know. Why must I decide everything?

Girl: Okay okay, then I decide.

(At least ask nicely. You don't have to give her a fucked up attitude.)

Scenario 3:

Girl: Omg, I think I look damn fat.

Guy: Lose weight lah. Who ask you everyday eat and eat and eat?

WOW OKAY, THAT IS DAMN MESSED UP.

I think guys seriously take advantage of girls cos they always wanna be in control of the relationship.

Girls are sensitive beings therefore, they show their emotions but cover up just to not let the guy worry and they are always willing to do shit for them.

Then once the guy feels like he's dominating the relationship, he would not give a damn about how the girl would feel.

The worst case scenario is when a couple has been together for a few years, they start to drift apart but the girl wants to cling on even more.

Guys always get upset when its their fault and when their girls get sad on facebook/twitter, they'll start scolding their girlfriends.

Like seriously, wth do you want from us?

Now, I've become someone who doesn't even know if my boyfriend is bad to me or not.

Even if I know, I just shrug it off and pretend nothing happened.

Maybe it seems like I'm being cold and not sweet like other girls but..this is how I stay strong.

I can only depend on myself because if things end up nasty, I can't go back crying to my boyfriend right?

Yesterday, people asked me why I'm not upset about the being used as a replacement issue.

Why?

1. Cos I'm over him.

2. There's no point crying over a jerk.

3. I would rather see him suffer than see myself suffer.

4. I'm happily attached. What more can I ask for?

I wish, so very much that I can be like other girls. Who can show their love openly to their guys and completely depend on their guys.

But, I'm scared.

I'm scared that once I cling on, I'll lose him.

I know I'm only 17 and I have a long way ahead of me..but..once you've found someone who is extremely like you in character and who accepts you for who you are and accepts your flaws, you obviously won't be able to let go of him/her right?

Up till now, this relationship has been really awesome!! I can say its the best relationship I've ever been in. I've never been so open and happy with a guy for the first 3 months.

My boyfriend is really sweet to me as well..

I feel important to him all the time.

But..I'm always thinking..how long will the happiness last?

Alright enough ranting, off to bed.

Too much to ask for.

2011-07-07T02:05:00.001+08:00

Don't even know where to begin.

Let's start with something small shall we?

Remember 3 months ago, my ex dumped me and his reason?

"My mom don't like you, her company crashing, too much shit in my life."

2 days later....

"At zirca/rebel, at club soul..."

1. WTF YOUR MOTHER'S COMPANY IS CRASHING YET YOU GO OUT CLUB LIKE FREE.
2. TOO MUCH SHIT IN YOUR LIFE? LIKE.A.JOKE.

Fuck it, I know I'm only 17 but wtf? I ain't some small child that you can play with.

Today, I was informed that, apparently, he's still in love with his ex after 2 years plus.

No wonder, he was shouting her name when
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I was sleeping beside him.

Nice going ah, Timothy See.

I honestly don't give a fuck if he sees this or some slut who likes him sees my blog and tells him

Nabei I also don't know why I like him that time.

Oh right, I remember now.

1) Pretending to be nice to me. (typical player)
2) Honeymoon period fucking sweet like a lollipop.
3) Make me cling on like some motherfucker.

Then.....

*BAM* Nabei break up lah.

Then all the fucking ridiculous excuses come out and guess what? I'm so fucking "smart" to believe all of it.

AND WHAT'S THE MOST RIDICULOUS THING?!

I get attached he give some nbcb attitude and scold my boyfriend. KNN I'M NOT THE ONE WHO IS STILL IN LOVE WITH MY EX AND FINDS ANOTHER REBOUND AND FUCKED UP THE WHOLE THING RIGHT? NABEI YOU GOT WHAT RIGHT TO SCOLD MY CURRENT BOYFRIEND?!

*okay fuck, now this post just sounds like some 13 year old girl ranting. I'm sorry. I'm just annoyed. Let me get back my calm mind first*

-breathes-

Okay back to the topic.

I know many people will say, "you're attached to a better guy now, you should just ignore whatever that fucker is doing/thinking."

Yeah I know I'm attached to a fking good guy now..*even though...mmm..you know..cos I'm a girl, I ain't that strong so yeah, I get jealous at times but they're just minor issues..me being fking retarded -_-* OOP again. ummm...yeah and I'm fking happy with him. BUT, how would you feel if you put in like fking alot of effort into that relationship and after you guys broke up, you found out a few months later, he actually took you as a rebound? I didn't say I never took anyone as a rebound before. I did. But, I realized my mistake and ended it just so that I won't prolong the relationship and cause even more hurt to that person.

But what do motherfuckers do?

They prolong the relationship, cause you to cling onto them for dear life, thinking that they're the most important sonofabitch in your life and once you're in their trap...*snap* you're dead!

You'll end up crying and threatening him that you'll die and blahblahblahblahblah.

Die for a guy? I almost did that twice and uhmmm..felt stupid hehehehehe!

*crap, my room smells like meepok now.*

The thing that annoys me the most is that..he had the guts to scold my boyfriend and call him a scavenger!

FUCK YOU TWAT! YOU'RE THE FUCKING SCAVENGER.

I ain't in your possession since YOU threw me away and I deserve to be happy with whoever I want and I've made the right choice to be with my current boyfriend, Jonas Ng.

Not happy? Go fuck a tree.
Better yet..go fuck a slut at a club and get aids (:

I can't believe I got lied to for a whole fucking year and wasted my precious time.

THANK GOD I'VE FINALLY FOUND HAPPINESS WITH MY BABYCAKESMUFFINLOVEBIRDCANDYCANES (i'm ridiculous) AND THAT EVEN THOUGH, WHEN I WAS WITH "TIMIFUCKEDASLUTANDGOTAIDS SEE." I DIDN'T SPEND MUCH TIME WITH MY FRIENDS, BUT THEY'RE STILL THERE FOR ME ALL THE TIME.

Bet some of you are guessing, "heh, you won't tell your boyfriend about this right?"

WRONG!

I told him. Fuck it, I don't wanna hide things from him.

But, he's asleep now and...hope he'll understand why I'm so upset.

My blog is the only place I can rant at right now since its like almost 2am and everyone is asleep cos there's classes tmr!

So yeah..this is just a random post to rant and like vent my anger.

-2 secs later-

Okay, I'm happy again. *I've serious mood issues*

Dammit guys, stop playing with the girl who treats you right. Once you lose her, she'll never ever fucking want a douchebag like you again.

Babycakes showed me a post the other day which makes a WHOLE LOT OF SENSE.

Its about guys who don't know how to treasure their girlfriends and what will happen.

"If you like to insult/hurt her, don't forget, there'll always be another man waiting to give her comfort and make her happy all the time."

Love you sweetiepie. <3

Tragedy.

2011-06-11T10:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, the simplest of things may just kill you.

Many of us expect a smooth sailing life: Perfect grades, perfect family, perfect lover, perfect marriage, perfect everything.

When we face a challenge, some of us may choose to handle it, some of us may find the easy way out. Suicide.

The suicidal instinct had hit me twice before.

The feeling was never good.

When people prevented me from being suicidal, I go into some food disorder period.

Life sucked at that point and all I thought about was death.

Now that I look back at it, I think I was quite foolish to destroy myself over guys.

1st reason for suicide: My boyfriend at that time controlled me like crazy and I could barely breathe.
2nd reason for suicide: My boyfriend at that time took me as a toy, bitched about me to his friends and left me and gave me a stupid reason.

Both suicide attempts were because of a broken heart.

Many people would give advice saying:

"There are many fishes in the sea."

"No guy is worth it."

etc.....

Many girls have insecurities and stuff but..what's the point?

When you hurt yourself, who will care for you? Other than your family and those friends who see you as a priority in life.

But..hurting yourself over a guy..based on what I've experienced, the guy wouldn't give two shits about whether you're alive or dead once you've ended the relationship.
(Or maybe if he's kind hearted enough he'll drop a fruits basket at the hospital. Well..)

So, perhaps everyone should look at life in a more positive manner.

Other than thinking everyone hates you and stuff..think about all the great and fun stuffs you can do.

Before you start thinking about jumping off a cliff or whatever you can think of, think about the life you'll have to leave behind, the people that are gonna cry their hearts out for you on your funeral and the future you deserved.

Many people think that they won't ever make a difference, whether they are alive or not. But, honestly, every human being, cat, dog, whatever, makes a difference in this world. Everyone is important. Everyone has something to give to this planet. (:

So stop thinking that you're not important. Even though I don't know you, but you're important to me.

Everyone makes a difference, a good one!

SO START LOVING YOURSELF TODAY! <3

It's a new generation.

2011-06-02T01:12:00.000+08:00

Updates again (:

So in my previous post, I said that I'm attached again.

I'm attached to a guy named Jonas Ng.

Long long long story of how we got together.

Hopefully, he'll be the guy that I'll last long with and then I'll be able to blog about our love story!

So we've been together for a month plus.

One day we went to Universal Studios!!!!! :D

Met babycakes at vivo then we went to take the monorail to USS (:

After taking the mummy ride, we took a photo with "cleopatra" HAHAH. Freaking hot right? Yolzie says I've got competition -_-

In this photo, baby really look like a horse. LOL.

In the..uhhh..idk what is it called.

PUSS IN BOOTS!!!! It tried to touch my face ):

On the carousel (:

cockface. -_-

Screw heels. We should all get stilts.

In the spinny cup thingy. LOL! Favourite picture.

Look like a lost girl LOL.

failed jumpshot -_-

The freaking frankenstein was actually elbowing me.

Then we went back to babycakes' house and bathed, then napped awhile.

On 20th may, it was Leonard's 18th birthday!!!

Met Yolzie , Fran, Zhixin and Leonard at Vivo's Swensens.

Had dinner then we blindfolded Leonard.

He had to walk around vivo like a blind dude.

Hilarious scene!!

Then he became like some mannequin for us to take photos with (:

Zhixin and Fran (:

Zhixin and I (:

Idk why Yolzie is pulling Leonard's hair LOL.

At the bus stop waiting for babycakes <3

Babycakes piggybacked Leonard across the road LOL.

At Henderson Waves getting ready for the surprise (:

His birthday cake is like some 2 tiered wedding cake (Y)

Attacked with flour (:

Leonard looks quite demonic in this photo.

4 normal girls with a ghost.

Jonny, Leonard and KangRui (:

Leonard come photobomb -_-

GROUP SHOTS

Zhixin, Yolzie and I (:

Ending off with Yolanda and Leonard's scandal photo HAHAHAH.

New blog post tomorrow on Zech and Marie's Wedding on 21st May (:

Status update.

2011-05-20T15:23:00.000+08:00

Hey cutiepies (:

So here's the recent update of my life.

I broke up in april with Timothy. As you all know, the relationship was important to me. But then, after a whole lot of thinking and talking with my friends, I realized that I've been dating someone who wasn't suited for me.

We are just two completely different people.

So yeah after the breakup, I started hanging out more often with my friends and studying for my O levels.

On my facebook feeds, he's always appearing and its always about him clubbing.

Then I thought to myself, woah so I've been dating a guy who couldn't commit to one girl so I was the one blocking him from having fun because we were in a relationship?

Anyways, I feel happier after ending the relationship (:

Made me realize that I don't revolve around one person and that someone doesn't revolve around me.

So, after the breakup I hung out more often with Leonard, Sam, Yolanda, Xinyu, Simin and others..

Life has been great for me.

Well, here's the shocking news for some.

I'm attached.

Will continue the story soon (:

Out to westmall with Tim :D

2010-02-02T19:38:00.000+08:00

Today school was alright :D
Skipped chinese mock exam LOL.
Today Mrs Tam was complaining about her cramps O:
She started shouting and asking people to kill her without pain :p
After school came back home to bathe :D

HAD A DAMN FREAKING LONG TALK WITH MY MOM !

She said she feels so uncomfortable ever since I broke up :O
Oh wells..maybe during chinese new year she'll be okay again :D
So prepared to go out and study ^^
Tim was already at Westmall waiting.
So I went to Mos Burger and wait.
Then we started doing our revision :)
So good kids right ? I know ^^

Then, we ordered our food cos I was complaining that I'm freaking hungry :(
And guess what ?

TIM has NEVER (quote 'never') eaten at Mos Burger before :O
Come on lah even Shangkuok has tried Mos Burger before LOL.
Omgosh, I'm like degrading Sk :(
Sorryyyyyy :D

After eating, he was showing me magic tricks and,
HIS MAGIC IS SO DAMN COOL !!!!
It's like those kind of magic you see on tv.
[Obviously not as pro as David Blaine or Criss Angel or Cyril Takayama lah] :3
Sorry man :D
I'm saying the truth !!!!!

Then we went to shop shop shop :)
I bought a keychain to replace my broken one :(
Went to buy bubble tea, then waited for my mom with him.
Tim started acting retarded, and I was like,
'You're scaring my mom, please stop. '
T: 'Aunty, am I scaring you? '
Mom: ' LOL. no. '

Went to buy hamster food and bedding then left :D

OI TIM ! I UPDATE ALREADY !
YOU MUST UPDATE YOUR'S ! :(

Brand new start :O

2010-01-30T17:26:00.000+08:00

Well..as many of you know, I've just ended a 17 months relationship.
Its hard for me but definitely even harder for him.
But it just has to end.
Its best for me and for him.
And by the way, its the 'O' Level year, shouldn't be distracted by all these. :x
So, thanks Sk, Sueann, Yongxin, Yijing, Julie, Vien, Yijing, Royce, Yishu, Hiroshi, Yolanda, and many others who cheered me up.
But i think the one who needs care the most is him.
I'm so sorry.
I hope he has a better life ahead :)

Well, I'll be updating soon.
But not right now.
I need to sort my life out :x

Carolling, Bangkok Trip and New years Party :)

2010-01-02T23:08:00.002+08:00

So back to updating :D

Here are the photos for carolling, Bangkok trip and New Years Party ^^
Will be starting off with carolling :P

Carolling Night

Went to my house first for dinner :D
Then we practiced and practiced our songs and timings.
Then we left for the next house ^^
Here are the pictures taken at my house :)

My outfit for carolling :D

Altos and Tenors. :)

Sopranos :D

The 2 out of 3 boys of the youth group :)

My darling Yongxin :D

Our guitarist ^^

Joanna and Jennifer :)

Joy: I have a weird sister :x

Jean: Just smile at the camera, butthead ! :)

What is rudolph doing in the bus ?

He's supposed to be in front of the bus :D

Jean, Joy, Jennifer, Me :D

Clearer :D

Me and Yongxin :)

Look at all the reindeers :O

Joy looks..creepy :x

Yongxin, Me, isabel and SiEn :D

All the juniors (other than me, yongxin , isabel and SiEn) ^^

Me and My bro :)

Hahahah ! fishes :D

Idk what happened to his face :x

I DID NOT LICK HIM ! GROSS !

Hahah we were posing for Sean's phone LOL.

Okay this is a family joke lah LOL.

When I was a baby, my bro would always make this face to me and I would do it back haha.

But now, if he does it to me, I'll give him a tight slap !

But for that day, I'm nice and did the face too ^^

Here's the punishment for doing that face :D

Church game ^^

Delilah, Samson, Lion ! LOL.

'Fortune Kitties :D '

I have no idea why I did that face :x

Here's the dessert of our retarded photos :D

At Uncle James house ^^

In the bus :D

Taken with the kids :)

I'm a kid too ^^

*young at heart*

At..uhh..forgot whose house ^^

AHHH ! The house with sushi :D

Yongxin's and My Lights :D

At Pastor Leng's house :D

The whole Youth Group :)

HAHAHAHAH !

Top : Jason, SiMin.

Middle : Sean, Isabel and Nicky.

Bottom: Jovan and ME !! :D

Jovan , Me and Yongxin :)

Jennifer and Me :)

Me and Joy :D

So that's the end of Caroling pictures :)

Now moving on....

Bangkok Trip

When I woke up , I had a terrible sore throat due to too many chocolates and champagne during caroling the night before.

But, being the idiot I am, there was chocolates along with our lunch on the airplane.

Guess what..I ATE IT !

Then when the bus reached the airport to fetch us to our hotel,

I fell ill, and got a fever -.-

How amazing, I got a fever on the first day :(

So my dad and my bros went to have dinner at A&W.

Me and my mom had room dining :D

I ate Pork Congee and my mom ate sushi :)

But I took the sushi and my mom ate the congee LOL.

On the airplane :D

'Cathay Pacific' ^^

This is what is inside the hotel room.

Can you see something weird on the shelf ?

Its a DUREX condom :x

This is the first time I've ever seen a condom in a hotel room :O

And there are alcohols :x

On the second day ,

We went on a tour :)

Bangkok's Chinatown :D

Some temple :x

The Chinatown Gates :)

Prison Museum :x

They said they have the prison at the left side and have the museum at the right :O

How amazing right ?

The tallest standing Buddha :)

Monks praying for the welcoming ceremony of a new monk. :D

Can you see the guy with the shaved head and has a white robe ?

He's sitting beside the old lady in the wheelchair :p

Yup he's the new monk :x

Me and my mom :)

Right after that , we went to eat lunch ^^

It's the bird nest, shark-fins restaurant :D

Hot bird nest with gingko nuts :D

Hahah my dad took this.

He said I look like some retard with no eyes :x

Shark fins soup with mushroom :D

Super loves x3

SO that's where Dumbo's mummy went :D

Went to MBK and they helped me to do a cover for my ipod touch :D

This is a cover they made for my phone too :D

On the way to the airport :D

My bro and his manu jacket :D

Then went home and took pictures of the stuff I bought :D

I didn't take all cos I packed them immediately :x

Checkered belt :)

Jewellery Box :D

When me and baby met at our hotel , he gave me this box of chocolate truffles :D

[ Passion Fruit and Strawberry Flavours. ] ^^

Blinged Phone strap :)

YSL Lipstick ( ROUGE VOLUPTÉ lipcolor in #22 Exquisite Plum )

Nars Lipgloss in Turkish Delight :D

Angled blush Brush and Eyeshadow Brush :)

Golden Studded Eyelet :D

Purple Ed Hardy Top :D

White shorts :)

Brown Skirt :D

D&G top :)

Green Ed Hardy Tube Top :)

House Robe :D Pink side ^^

Black Side :)

Next..

New Years Party / Countdown

Had the party at my place :)

Church people came ^^

Had service too :)

Jamie and me :)

Jamie, Me and Xinyun :)

Love this photo :)

Jamie and Genevieve were like blocking my face LOL.

Love <3

Party poppers and Party Sprayers Remains :x

Look at the table and projector :X

Will upload the videos soon :)

So that's about it ^^

Baby is coming back from Myanmar tomorrow :D

CANNOT WAIT !!!!!

xoxo;♥

Youth camp :D

2010-01-01T18:56:00.000+08:00

Here are all the photos of camp.

Umm, I only took what we did on the first day because,

After playing 'Dog and Bone' my battery died.

Most of the pictures are on facebook :x

At someplace that I don't remember :p

Isabel, Jean and Me :p

Me, Joy and SiEn :)

Joy and Xinru ^^

Everyone :)

Senior Youth and Junior Youth ^^

The girls :D

The 2 boys ^^

Junior Youth :D

Senior Youth :D

You must be wondering why I'm in both.

Well because I'm the only 15 ( 16 this year ) year old person in the church.

And in the Junior Youth the youngest is 13 years old.

The oldest is 14.

In the Senior youth the Oldest is 23 and the youngest is me.

Most of the time I'm with the Senior Youth,

But well, I ain't that old yet so I'm mid-way :)

All of us again :)

We were trying to do some triangle formation :x

Isabel, nicky, Jean and Jason. ^^

CAPTAIN'S BALL !

Here are the stuff we used to play.

First 3 rounds : Volleyball !

4,5,6 rounds: Frisbee !

7,8,9 rounds : Ping Pong Ball !

Love this photo :D

NONO DON'T TOUCH MY BUTT !

Love this photo too :D

My team :)

Nicky's team :O

Poor Jean :(

Camp was fun :D

Will be having another church camp in June ^^

It will be together with another church :x

Will update tomorrow about carolling, bangkok and new year party if i'm not going out :D

2009-06-13T21:26:00.002+08:00

CHALET WAS THE SEX !

detailed description (:
First day !!!

Me and my mom went there first to prepare everything.
Then Yolanda , James , Joshua , Yijing and Kejie reach already.
Help to carry all the food.
James was like in great pain carrying the box.
Joshua was okay okay ,
Kejie like carrying nothing like that.
In the end , we found out why ,
James was carrying all the ice , Joshua was carrying food , Kejie carrying cutlery LOL !
Then we all slacked in the room and waited for Julie and Vivien.
We went to cheers to buy things (:
Julie's brothers and his friends came already.
They bought for us absolute vodka (:
We went back to the chalet , we were playing 21 (:

Joie reached , then we ask her ownself come LOL.
She came to the room , then we played cards.
Then its time for BBQ (:
Joseph and his friends went to bbq for us LOL.
Then , my dad came (:
Linglin and Boonkiat also came.
Me , Joie , Linglin and Boonkiat went to cheers.
Then Linglin and Boonkiat went back first ,
Me and Joie went to buy plaster and antiseptic cream for Yolanda.
( because she was running after julie for locking her up in the guys room so Yolanda chased her and fell on the road.)
Then we played murderer (:
Then we played snap jack (:
DAMN DAMN FUN !
Andre reached already.

Then we went out to the bbq pits ,
We played "I'd never"
Me , Linglin , Yolanda and Julie all sabo Chuanshen to drink.
In the end he got drunk LOL.
Then he went to sleep , Yolanda took care of him.
Joshua and James stayed with her :]
Me , Linglin , Joie , Julie , Joseph his friends , Andre went to Ehub to play arcade.
Played DDR with Linglin :}
Played that other dancing game with Joie and Linglin ,
Played that whacking game with Julie and Linglin :}
Then we went back ,
Joseph and his friends go off le.
Yolanda , james and joshua came out ,
Then we all slack outside macs.

We then went to the beach to slack also.
I cried at the beach , cos I miss baby alot T^T
I was hugging Linglin and lying on her shoulder ,
Then Joie come pat my head.
We then went back to the chalet cos my mom got pissed.
Me , Linglin , Julie , Yolanda , Joshua and James were talking outside .
We came back in at around 5 plus ?
Then we go to our rooms and lie on the bed.

2nd day.

We went to get ready for breakfast (:
( Oh and Chuanshen finally woke up after hmm...sleeping more than us LOL. )
We ate macs for breakfast :}
Then we went to escape , my mom went back home to get things.
We played Superman , Pirate ship , the water log ( idk the name ) ,Go kart and alot more :}
After Escape , the girls went back to the chalet.
We were all sleeping outside the chalet cos we waiting for my mom to come back.
Then the guys were at the arcade.
We finally went in the rooms.
Then , we were all in the boys room including my mom LOL.
Me , Yolanda , joshua and chuanshen were playing taiti :}
Then James took over chuanshen.
Then we moved on to 21 :}
My mom took over me :p

I actually owe chuanshen 60 crunches(sp?) or pushups ,
in the end my mom help me clear all (:
Then we moved on to murderer :}
Everyone keep dont want kill me cos they scared I policeman. WTH LA ! LOL.
Then we played snap jack :]
After play play play , left me , yolanda and joshua challenge LOL.
Then Chuanshen took over joshua :]
I finished my deck , then its between Yolanda and Chuanshen.
Then we went to burger king to eat dinner !
We da bao back to the rooms , cos we all want watch shuang zi xing :]
me and my mom were on the mattress , Joshua , James and Chuanshen on the bed , Joie and Andre in the other mattress.
Ate finish , then me , Yolanda , Joshua , James and Chuanshen went out to talk again.
Then James and Yolanda went to send Joshua off.
I went in to watch tv.

Then I challenge with Chuanshen play STRESS !
Wa he really stress sia , he go whack the cards on the board LOL.
Then I challenge with Joie then Andre took her place ,
Then Chuanshen had to go back already.
Then me and Yolanda taught James how to play.
Wa James really stress sia haha.
Then after playing many rounds , me and Yolanda and James went to the boys room.
Andre was sleeping on the floor , then we play stress again and listen music.
James really hate losing ah ?
He lose to me then keep want rematch LOL.
Then me and Yolanda went back to our room and sleep.
I was damn tired.

3rd day.

I bathed and got ready to check out le.
Yolanda , James , Joie and Andre were talking in the guys room.
Then me and my mom packed up,
Called them , then we left :]
Andre and Joie took mrt back ,
Me , Yolanda and James took my mom's car.

I curled myself into a ball and sleep sia.
Was damn tired.

Overall , the chalet was really really fun (: